Decluttering Depression + Poem: Beatitudes and Revelations

Sorry I’ve been away (for much longer than I expected), I’m taking a break on re-editing and reposting—it’s overwhelming to reinvent my entire blog, my perfectionistic tendencies drain my energy quickly. Action and resting are elements that can work together well, if they’re balanced. I think I’ve been hibernating for these past 4 years, 2020 seems like a decade ago; the disasters still keep piling up. What a cluttered mess we’re in, but change is always silently in action.

Spring Cleaning is a real-life metaphor that I’m applying not just to this blog’s content, but to my entire life: I want to revitalize my intentions and my actions. I want to be less angry/reactive, less depressed/in a state of inertia, I want to slim down/exercise for health and aesthetic reasons and I want to let go of what I no longer have an affinity for. Mentally and physically decluttering my life feels like a daunting task but I have the Holy Spirit to remind and guide me so I feel hopeful that positive changes are happening already, (thank you Jesus). I’m going to pace my progress and try to practice kindness (patience with each stage that I’m at).

The physical aspect might take awhile especially because I moved to Texas in a chaotic rush. I let go of a lot of perfectly good things in CA because there was no room in the moving Pod or in my new location. I had to cram my 1.5 BR apt into a small bedroom within a house. Most of my books/papers/clothes were placed haphazardly in clear storage totes, with an assumption that I would fine tune the sifting process in TX but I never did. Depression (aka stagnation) froze everything in a time capsule state of limbo.

Several times I attempted to go through the closets and storage bins but I gave up relatively quickly in a state of sweaty frustration, (the bins were mountainously piled up in a sauna-like garage) but last week something slightly shifted. I bought new storage shelving and it inspired me to declutter. I’ve been slowly reorganizing little sections first: the closets. The phrases: in the closet and out of sight out of mind, says so much; closets are hiding places for every miscellaneous and random thing—at least that’s how I’ve been abusing them. I’m going at a turtle’s speed but the steady pace wins the race. :).

Here’s a revised poem that I’ve been working on since my last post. The rhyme scheme is ABCC, ABCB alternating. I’m expanding away from my usual “haiku in variations”—exploring using rhyme schemes and patterned structure.

Beatitudes:

Supreme blessedness or happiness.

https://duckduckgo.com/?q=beatitudes+meaning&ia=web

Beatitudes and Revelations 

Blessed are the poor 
Blessed are the humble 
Steady pace is full of grace 
Earnest heart wins the race

Life is a marathon 
of surviving trials 
Alpha status seeking 
is full of doubt and denials

Ego pampers you with lies 
confuses and bruises
False friends 
betray you in the end

The fast lane of pride 
will crash you in disgrace 
The slow lane of patience 
saves your sweet face 

Blessed are those 
who hunger and thirst 
yearn to be good 
do what you should 

Love is accountable 
for what it started 
it won’t leave you 
broken hearted

Blessed are the peacemakers 
Don’t seek to win 
turn the other cheek 
it’s the opposite of weak

The peaceful will see 
God’s radiant face 
protected in the mercy seat 
tears wiped without a trace 

Blessed are the merciful 
forgiving their persecutors 
Gentleness is what Jesus preached 
faith in God is what Jesus teached 

Jesus modeled for us 
how to rise above
transcend the sorrow 
transform hate to love 

Jesus teached, 
blessed are you 
when you are rejected 
blessed, when you’re subjected 

The first will be the last 
the last will be the first 
satan will be chained 
demons will be cursed 

Blessed are the mourners 
their wounds mend stronger 
their broken hearts 
split aimless darts 

Never seek revenge 
Don’t stoop to evil’s level 
Let go of pride 
Don’t become a devil 

Blessed are those 
that seek and follow Jesus 
Blessed are the gentle 
give grace to the mental 

Be rescued 
saved like a treasure 
the faithful bride redeemed 
judged by God’s measure 

Rescued in the harvest 
wheat separated from the weeds 
escaped from impending gloom 
barred from approaching doom 

When satan’s loosed 
unrestrained rage 
unlike anything known before 
when darkness leaves it’s twisted cage 

God help this godless world 
where nightmares become reality 
demons will plunder and rape 
they’ll be no escape 

Don’t succumb to fear 
their false reign will be fast 
7 years of bloodstained tears 
but the pain won’t last 

Death will be begged for 
but it will not come 
If you’re unfortunately here 
do not give in to despair 

While you’re alive 
there’s always hope 
Be martyred if necessary 
repent and be revived 

Not even the angels know 
when the day of glory is 
Slow and true does not stumble 
speak the truth and stay humble 

Death is not the end
it’s actually a gate 
everyone will pass through it
the saved will graduate 

This halflife is a dream 
a mirage fading fast 
but it’s worth it in the end 
reborn a beloved child of God again 

The dead will revive glorious 
we reap what we sow 
like newborn angels 
as God’s true rainbow.

Revelations

A sudden insight or idea

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The Beatitudes:

1. Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.  
2. Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
3. Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.
4. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
5. Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
6. Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
7. Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
8. Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
9. Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

this ://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew%205:1-12&version=NKJV