Exposing Darkness: Why I Changed the Name/Theme of This Blog

For anyone new to my blog, Serene Grace has a backstory; it used to be called Seoul Sister.

Seoul Sister used to be an art, poetry and memoir blog with a Korean-American emphasis/theme. I had a steadily growing audience with a daily interaction of affirming comments and applause, (20-70+ likes per post) but the traffic and the validation has greatly dwindled. Surprisingly that doesn’t bother me (anymore). When you set yourself apart from the world by aligning with God; the world will often—attack and reject you. I take it as a confirmation that I’m on the right path.*

I’ve made it a personal mission to expose the darkness that I see, which is subliminally or overtly prevalent in society, because I was used and tricked by mainstream culture and liberal indoctrination. Growing up in Gen X culture greatly molded and influenced me to become self-absorbed and stuck in perpetual victimhood. It took me 29 yrs to realize that I’d been duped—brainwashed: by the public school system, pop culture/music, movies/celebrities and the liberal media. It’s like I was literally asleep for almost 3 decades and now that I’m aware and awake I feel furious with the NWO puppeteers and at my own naïveté.

I switched the primary theme of this blog (and my life) because I desperately want to meaningfully repurpose the lost time that I spent in New Age paganism and liberal socialism. Like the Prodigal son, I wasted my youth in pointless pursuit of pseudo-creativity, shallow intellect and self-damaging depression—disguised as pleasure. I checked into the Hotel California but miraculously I escaped, by the grace of God.

Thank you God for your steadfast patience, and thank you Mom for your constant prayers, all of them were heard by God. I’m fully awake now because despite my ignorance—God knew my true heart belonged to Him, He refused to abandon me no matter how far I wandered away. I was a self-identified nouveau-hippie who uprooted from my traditional, asian, Christian family—straight after college without a plan or destination. I naively travelled alone to Crazytown, California to pursue an “artistic, bohemian life, but I found heartbreak, disappointment and regret in the experiment.

I essentially threw away my expensive liberal arts education (which my hard-working, immigrant parents paid for) to end up working in meaningless, underpaid jobs at: cafes, retail, catering and libraries—as a perpetual underling. I actually thought I was enlightened because I didn’t work a “corporate job” and I convinced myself that I was spiritually advanced because I studied meditation and intuition, psychic healing and astral travel. I gave “past life” chakra readings and aura healings as a Psychic Clairvoyant in the San Francisco, Bay Area.

I collected expensive crystals and burned hippie-chic incense, I bleach-dyed my hair unnaturally bright: red, pink or cobalt blue, (it’s probably why my hair is now predominantly, prematurely grey). I wasted my youth and beauty, and sank into depression frequently; with my idealistic heart broken over and over again by non-commital boyfriends that I foolishly lent money too, (never date flaky musicians). I rejected my Christian faith and once I even publicly argued with a street preacher in front of BART (the subway system in SF), thinking I was being so righteous! I shopped at witchy New Age stores, read tarot cards and studied Eastern and Western astrology—once upon a time that fanciful idiot was me.

Then 2020 hit hard. The Plandemic changed the trajectory of my life but it was a much needed catalyst that finally propelled me out of the illusionary bubble of liberalism. Actually the transformation (incrementally) began in 2018, that’s when I dramatically started to notice the disease of radicalized Wokeism, the wheels of change turned slowly but consistently in my life—all of the liberal values that I had previously championed for 29 yrs started to fall apart like a house of cards.

The final straw was being unlawfully terminated (for the first time in my life) for not complying to the vax mandate. I should ultimately be thankful to my oppressors at the Oakland Public Library in California because that injustice jolted me awake. I knew the agenda that they were selling us wasn’t right and I was shocked that hardly anyone else around me could see this. Instead of taking a medical exemption, (I have a rare form of eczema), I chose to exercise my religious right to freedom. That choice re-ignited and re-aligned my spiritual purpose. Going against the crowd was intimidating (only 5 employees including myself, out of hundreds of library employees, refused the jab) but ultimately it was a blessing in disguise, because it set me on a renewed pathway home—back to my childhood roots and the protective shelter of God.

Being red-pilled is a lonely excursion, but I’d rather be a solitary warrior for God, than be part of a massive army of auto-pilot sheep. I can’t go-along to get-along. I can’t willingly cooperate with government sponsored PsyOps with a clear-conscience. I don’t have all of the puzzle pieces, (there are too many to collect) and the information constantly gets reshuffled, erased and mixed in with purposefully leaked misinformation; but once you understand the key elements of deception; you’ll start to notice that evidential patterns of the occult are present everywhere, deeply and subliminally embedded into mainstream society. Almost every major corporate logo reflects Luciferean symbolsm and it can’t all be a coincidence.

I believe that life is a journey of understanding the actual nature and purpose of existence. What else could be more important? Realization is our key to liberation; we’re not designed to be slaves who die in fear and ignorance. Nothing is more important to me than realizing that God actually exists and that there is an ongoing battle in life for our eternal soul.

Everyone knows that life on Earth is temporal; why cling to material wealth and status here—you can’t take any of it with you. How does it make any sense that we live and die and that’s all there is? “Live, drink and be merry” is a prescription to a shallow, wasted life. We are more than mere hedonists. Each of us was gloriously created for a purpose. The miracle of God’s imprint is evident in our complex bodies and within the genius of nature. Look at a sea shell, a sunset, a tree, a rose, the uniqueness of our fingerprints, the laughter of a baby—none of us are accidental, all of us were created with perfect, intelligent, divine intention.

Many people cling to the illusion that God is cruel and Christians are judgmental but I don’t believe that dividing good from evil is a cruel act, I see it as a necessary truth and righteous justice. Jesus taught us how to discern what’s important versus mere ritual. He pointed out the hypocrisy of religious leaders (pharisees) of His time and they crucified Him to silence the truth. Not all Christian leaders are sincere believers, too many are false teachers/greedy opportunists—but they don’t represent true Christianity. Some purposely mislead by preaching New Age prosperity “if it feels good, just do it” (Crowley’s “Do as thou wilt”blasphemy)—which is ancient paganism revived.

I fell into that mirage-like illusion for almost 3 decades—I know how powerful New Age propaganda is. It focuses on candy-coated “positivity” but in reality, it’s rooted in infantile narcissism. It’s all fluff with no substance. New Age propaganda says we should forget the past and let go of the future, just “be here now” but that empty jargon is a foolish waste of time. The past exists for a reason. Mistakes should be learned from, not ignored and repeated. We should strive to be wise—prepare for the future through our present actions but New Age fluff encourages us to merely tread water, go nowhere, drop out of life and “contemplate your navel”.

I lost 3 precious decades (the best years of my youth) by following this ridiculous nonsense. New Age strives for “balance” of good and evil, it advises you to integrate the “shadows” with light. Well I call bullshit on that—Demons won’t stop tearing you apart if you try to hug them. Good and evil are not equal. New Age says that they’re interchangeable and constantly in flux. But opposites balanced on a scale of justice is a fraudulent lie, because goodness and truth are superior to evil and deception. Yin and yang within balance is an oversimplified illusion. Masons actually believe that they can rebalance good with bad actions, (that’s what their black and white chessboard signifies), but you can’t commit murder and then rebalance it with an act of goodness. You can’t win or buy your way to heaven. You can’t cancel out your evil actions, the ripple effect alone causes ever-increasing damage.

We reap and we sow—we cause and effect. No one can force us to embody evil. Blaming God for our choices plays into the victim role. Satan is an insecure imposter, evil can only tempt us—the choice is always ours. By God’s grace, forgiveness is always available because Jesus took the burden of our sin through great humiliation and undeserved death. While we’re still alive, we can radically change through true repentance. The door to God is Jesus because through his willing self-sacrifice, He created a bridge, a pathway for us to return back to God purified of sin’s disease—as we were originally intented to be: in goodness, knowingness, perfection—that is our true inheritance. That’s what I believe as a Christian. Salvation is regaining what was stolen from us in Eden—Paradise is our true home.

I post about “controversial” topics because I want to beam light (awareness) into the darkness (ignorance). I want to follow Jesus’ perfect example, He was the light of the world—rejected by the ones He came to save. Christians are instructed to be the light and salt, to stand firm in truth, stand apart from the mainstream and status quo as living examples, as children of our Creator. I am still very fallible, I stumble often along the pathway home but little by little I’m improving, as I allow myself to be molded into perfection by God. My little light isn’t bright enough to conquer the entire darkness (ignorance and evil run rampant in the world), but I aspire to add my tiny spark back to my origin, returning to the family of God. He has been so good, so faithful to me even when I abandoned Him. He knew I’d return. I am so grateful that He didn’t give up on me. He knew that I was mislead but not irretrievably lost, He knew that I would return to the truth. All of the past has come full circle and it all had a unique purpose. Thank you God for rescuing me. I was blind but now I see.

https://www.openbible.info/topics/exposing_darkness

I love this gospel song:

“This little light of mine,
I’m gonna let it shine.
This little light of mine,
I’m gonna let it shine.
This little light of mine,
I’m gonna let it shine,
let it shine, let it shine, oh let it shine.”

https://www.godtube.com/popular-hymns/this-little-light-of-mine/

* “¹⁸ “If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. ¹⁹ If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.²⁰ Remember what I told you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’^[a] If they persecuted me, they will persecute you also. If they obeyed my teaching, they will obey yours also. ²¹ They will treat you this way because of my name, for they do not know the one who sent me. ²² If I had not come and spoken to them, they would not be guilty of sin; but now they have no excuse for their sin. ²³ Whoever hates me hates my Father as well. ²⁴ If I had not done among them the works no one else did, they would not be guilty of sin. As it is, they have seen, and yet they have hated both me and my Father. ²⁵ But this is to fulfill what is written in their Law: ‘They hated me without reason.’^[b]

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John%2015:18-25&version=

Thank you for reading this epicly long post! May God bless you with hope and guide your pathway home.